Real Talk With Dave: Depression & Diabetes: It’s Okay to Feel this Way

As a Type 1 Diabetic of 9 years, I have experienced many challenges and opportunities with my Diabetes. I believe that the best way to survive the day to day struggles of T1D is simply by staying positive. Easier said than done though. Just as all others dealing with T1D, life is rough. There are no perfect days. Having to do the day to day care for Diabetes can be overwhelming and stressful at times. The highs and lows we go through can be hard on our bodies and can really affect our overall happiness and view on life.

As mentioned, I’ve personally been through a lot within the last 9 years of my life. As hard as I try to look at the positives in life, I still experience some very bad, dark days. Days where I wish I didn’t have to deal with checking my blood sugar, changing my pump site, having to fear that I will have a low or high blood sugar as I go about my day, whether out on the go or at school. Diabetes is one of those things that really trains and shapes your brain in such a way that one has to simply think of just about everything and every situation that could happen if not treated properly.

The dark days are the worst.

Those are the days in which I hurt on the inside. The days in which I look fine on the outside, but inside, I am a disaster. Lows and highs really affect me and leave me feeling symptoms of nausea, dizziness, tiredness, etc. Those days when I have a full day planned and have to put everything on hold because I’m feeling sick. Those days when I try my hardest to have good numbers and in the end, I’m still on the blood sugar roller coaster. There are days when I’ll be with my friends and they choose to consume something with a high carb or sugar content, but I have to say “no” and accept the fact that I can’t just eat anything at anytime I want. These are just some of the things that us Type 1 Diabetics do face at times that make us feel upset and depressed.

It can be hard as a teen or young adult especially, as there are more opportunities in one’s life, but there is always that thing (Diabetes) in the back of your head that automatically makes you stop and think of how you can do what you want, all while managing Diabetes. I personally will say that on the days when I can’t seem to find happiness or control with my Diabetes, I feel so small and so hurt that this is how life can be, despite all the other things that may be going on at the time.

Diabetes is a 24/7 type of job with no breaks, vacations, or a pause button.

It’s the bad days in which I wish I had a pass from all the things Diabetes has to throw at me.

I can’t end this on a negative note though, as I am someone who avoids negativity as much as possible. Bad vibes are never helpful when it comes to Diabetes, that’s why I try my best each and everyday to start the day new and say, “its a new day, make the best of it”! Through it all, I have realized that Diabetes truly can be a blessing in disguise. The amount of love and support I receive with my Diabetes is amazing and…

it’s the friendships and kind people that develop over time that make this Disease just a little easier.

I always think of where I was when I was first diagnosed to where I am now. A piece of advice I wish someone gave to me back then would simply be that it gets better. It may not seem so now, but trust me, it does. As long as you put in time and effort in managing your Diabetes, as well as focusing on the good times and striving to look at the positives, life can be however you want it to be!

Always, David

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